I'm NOT Selfish!!

(These are more rambling from past conversations with friends, Enjoy)

All our lives, we are told we have to do things for people.

We have to raise our kids.

We have to take care of the house.

We have to make sure our mens have what they want.

We have to make everybody happy.

We have to not be sick.

We have to use up all our strength to make everybody else strong.

So we ask, when is it our time?

When can we actually have something to ourselves because we have to give out so much, but it always feels like we never receive.

That's our frustration. It's not selfish its' just tiredness of giving and never getting anything back so we get angry cause it seems like no one cares.

The kids make a mess right after we clean up.

He throws his stuff down as soon as he comes home from work and gets upset cause i don't ask him about his day. What about my day? I worked just as hard. It may have been mentally in front of a computer and on the phone, but it's just tiring as what you did, plus I still have to take care of you, the house and the kids.

They all ask when is dinner ready? Why aren't my clothes cleaned? Did you pick up my suits? Did you get my special stuff from the store?

But did anyone ask how was your day? Did that migraine go away from this morning? Hey, I like the way those earrings look on you.

And then at night after we've run ourselves ragged for him, thekids and our employer, he wants to roll over on us and want some.

Oh Lawd, you have got to be kidding me.

No foreplay, and we know no afterplay cause he's got to get up early in the morning and just have to suffice his needs. I'm much rather you leave me the hell alone.

So forgive me if It sounds selfish to say, I want a man to come in my life and be there for me. If I ask you to do something I expdect the same you expect form me. Not some half ass effort to shut me up for a second, because it won't. It'll only piss me the fuck off cause you just showed me that you don't give a fuck and I just gave to something that was worth a piss of shit.

After I give and give all day, I expect to at leasthave one thing in my life where i can receive from. One thing that makes me happy. One thing I have in my life by choice.

Cause you're giving me a reall good reason to drop you like a bad habit

Although I must apologize because after having to do so much and be responsible for so much I do tend to forget that you too have responsibilities and have things on your plate as well.

In that regards, I do appreciate it and if I don't say it enough, please remind me.

Thank you for mowing the grass, taking out the trash and cleaning the kitchen. Thanks for picking up the kids when Icouldn't or giving me a tune up on my car and cleaning it up, filling it with gas and making sure it was lso cleaned on the outside. Thank you so much for putting the toilet seats down and cleaning up after yourself because you knew I was you woman not your maid.

I Even thank you for keeping the kids quiet when you knew i didnt' get any rest from that arduous lovemaking sesion you delighted my body in from the night before and making sure I got some extra sleep on a saturday morning.

I appreciate you very much, but forgive me if I don't say it enough, just remind me sometimes and I will try to let you know more, just as i would appreciate you doing the same to me.

But i'm not selfish, just under appreciated too.